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Inksplatters  It's almost been two years since I last posted. I haven't changed. I'm in my second year in college now, my courses (of a biochemical/genetics slant) are quite vague. I still don't know what I'm doing with my life. I still don't fit in, but I'm not trying as hard, it doesn't matter so much. Sometimes I worry about this. Sometimes I listen to my mp3 player as I walk home and dance and sing.. Then I don't worry at all. I want to fall in love. It's an utterly crazy wish. I'm still an actress playing way too many roles. I have a fear of LJ, of being too introspective, too self absorbed, it's a perilous place. We studied one particular poem for Leaving Cert. It contained "I" 14 times. The science hub is very nearly empty, most people have finished their exams. It's creepy, like walking around my old school before our concert, using the classrooms as dressing rooms. This is a building for people chattering, not for the whir of the vending machines. Occassionally somebody walks by, but as I'm not wearing my glasses I can't recognise them. Yes, in two years, not much has changed but my eyesight. It doesn't feel like Christmas, the lower part of this building is stark and void of decoration. They've taken away most of the seats. It feels like I haven't been home in ages, just dividing my times between Ranelagh (where I sleep) the RDS (where I do exams) and here (where I wait) The light pollution is terrible in Dublin, I wonder if it'll be too cold when I get home to walk on the beach? sorry Current mood:  restless.
Christmas exams nearly over now. Counting down the days til I'm finished the Leaving Certificate for good. Holidays soon but I'm in grinds for half of them. Anyways, enjoy your holidays people! Current mood:  hopeful.
Well, I'm back (again)and probably for good, I missed LJ, I missed blogs. I'm on Bebo but only because I have to.... What's new in my life? I quit Gospel choir. Once and for all. Except it happened in a rather cowardly way. Orla told someone and Pam overheard. Which makes her angry at me. But I can't find it in me to care.... Orla found Jesus. Or at least she says she has. We've permission to ask her about it next week as it could just have been brought about by the overly chirpy Canadiens (they scared me) who did our retreat with us. (Who Aisling are stalking...) Recently there was friendship problems... They seem to be resolved, though. Isn't it odd what some people keep secrets about? It snowed today, beautiful snow! There's no such thing as too much snow! (too me, anyway) Kingdom of Loathing is just..... addictive? funny? Words fail me. :( The 3rd and 6th Years are in the second week of their mocks. this means I haven't seen Christine and Claire for more than 10 minutes for what feels like ages. (It's hard to believe I once felt I didn't matter if I moved school) To end... Last Friday was National Beaver Day in Nova Scotia. Isn't it such a pity you didn't celebrate it? Current mood:  sympathetic.Current music: Sunshine and Chocolate. Ignore this if you want, I just need somewhere to clear my head because everything's falling to pieces. Claire's mum found her suicide note. I've been wandering around in a daze all day, it's like I know Claire, but I don't know what to say to her. As it is I've said some nasty things, I couldn't help myself. She came into my class this morning, pulled me and CC away from our convo (which was reassuring Orls)and said 'I was going to kill myself today.' i exploded silently but nonetheless. I took her wrists and said exactly what I've been biting my tongue about for the past ever. Then I apologised 5 minutes later because I'm so spineless. This is happening a lot reacently, it's as though the dam that I've been using to hold everything back has just crumbled and I've no way to censor what I want to before it comes out. I mean, I don't know, usually I say nothing, my face says nothing, my stance says nothing while my mind rants. Now my mind is like an audience in a horror movie thinking 'For crying out loud IT'S BEHIND YOU.RUN!' This can't be right, I need to find a balance. I'm insulting everyone, I'm such a bitch. I find it hard to believe that Garrett's still with me, it's such relief when everything so bloody awful. I'm smiling for the first time today Current mood: ranty.Current music: Placebo. If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and I. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your LJ and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you. Current mood:  nostalgic.Current music: Some tune with words. Okay I will admit that I am possibly the worst LJ user in the entire world. Also I'm scraping this journal and moving to another soooooo if you'd like to remain my friend; leave a message and I swear I'll read the months I've missed of your LJ and learn it off by heart, well maybe not off by heart. Farewell Aariealka! PS. I have a boyfriend. Looooong story. PPPS. Am in France. Current mood:  content.Current music: Sweet Emotion. Got an Aerosmith obsession 'tis very bad, and only just beginning. :D That's what I've been up to for the last while really.I was on local radio on Tuesday, it was not good. :( Went out clubbing that night, told Claire I'd a headache and went home early, wasn't really in a good mood so... Haven't been sleeping well either. Everytime I try to get some sleep I keep coming up with ideas for my play, needless to say, they're all crap. Current mood:  sleepy.
Hello, I'm trying to catch up with everybody's LJs. 
You are the rare, the overlooked, yet incredibly useful dodecahedron: the d12. You are a creative, romantic soul. You often act without thinking, but make up for your lack of plans with plenty of heart. You easily solve problems that stump others, but your answers tend to put you into even deeper trouble. You write long, detailed backgrounds for all your characters, and are most likely to dress up as one or get involved in cos-play. You can be silly at times and are easily distracted by your own day dreams, but are at the end of the day you're someone who can be depended on. I'm soooooooooo hyper, we went to Form and Fusion (a fashion show, Orla was modelling, poor pet) Before the actual contest we had an air-guitar contest on the catwalk. I rock. Before we went to the show we played badminton, I was quite good. I sooo rock Current mood:  I rock!.
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